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you're the best that used to be mine

2010-09-08T09:06:00.002+08:00

hmm, i guess this blog was abandoned for a long time and i don't expect anyone to read this anymore.

well, breaking up with my love was the most painful and regretful thing to do :'(
it was my fault.
this time, i made a freaking huge mistalke and i don't expect him to come back to me so easily.
true, we're still contacting but i can't express my feelings towards him.
i'm not allowed to.
:'(
that mistake i did will be with me till my deathbed.
thought he says he forgive me, it still doesn't feel the same.

i thank my family that they have given me a second chance.
without them, i think i'll still be crying and crying like a helpless person with no one to turn to :(
thanks alot guys :)

Raya is coming up really soon.
i rmbred that earlier this year, me and bby planned to wear punjabi together :D
but now... hmmm.
i really miss him and tmr is our 2years and 5months monthsary :'(
god, we've come this far and I just had to ruin it.

my handsome boy, i'll never let go of you.
though i may seem strong on the outside, no one really knows how i'm feeling right now.
i'm trying my freaking best to enjoy life but its not working cos he's not by my side anymore.
i really love you, Hairul.
so much and i would do anyth just to have you.

so many plans that we've made this year and we didn't manage to fulfill it.
Thanks to Me :'(
you may be thinking why i'm blaming myself.
cos it is my fault.

i just wish i could turn back time and not do things out of anger.
when the night i confessed to him, i felt his pain.
i rmbred of myself how i cried my heart out when he left me in the past.
but for him, it's 1000x the pain, i tell you.

he's my fucking best that i've got.
he's my true love and no one can ever replace him.
No One.

Honey, i didn't loved you cos of you wealth or looks.
It's your pure heart which i fell in love with.
Mistakes after Mistakes , Nadrah.

I really wanna prove to my family and him i won't be that stupid bitch anymore.
that 15mins, i wanna take it back .
:'(
i hate myself.

my appetite for eating has decreased so much now.
almost everyday, i will only eat one meal per day.
a few days, none at all.
i just feel so disgusted with myself.
literally spasm with my Own Self.

hmm, i can't dwell on the past right now.
for the sake of my family and him, i'll try my very best to pass my other two major tests with flying colours :)

Bby's gonna enter NS by next year.
hais, i really miss you so much hugging, kissing, irritating, caring, loving, etc me so much.
only God knows how much i regret and love him.

words mean nothing.
i'll prove with actions from now on.

From the bottom of my heart;
I really love and miss you, Mohamed Hairul.

2years and 5months, I thank God for those sweet and memorable moments.
it will always be in my mind and heart.
Thank you for giving me a man and family who made me realise how fun and important life is.

Love you my BbyMacemm :')
do takecare my dear.
i'll pray that you will have someone muchmuch better and can takecare of you like i did last time.

Love you, Mohamed Hairul; Ayut Virathan Martini :')
2years 5months.

baby love me

2010-06-12T17:46:00.002+08:00

heyyy !
how long i have not been updating eyyy?
heee :P

things are going really well with me and Dear :)
last week was our 2 years and 2 months ^^
glad we made it this far!

and yeah, i've perm my hairrrr :D
many says it looks wayyy better .

i think i'm not gonna update any soon again :(
busy! but now, i'm having my hols !
alaa, 3 weeks jek .
k , i'm off .
byeee ~

2010-04-23T21:44:00.002+08:00

mistakes can't be undone.

i feel guilty about what i've done just now.

i'm sorry but you know what we agreed when we patched up.

i love you.

:'(

ponder

2010-04-21T14:01:00.003+08:00

What is love?

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest? It isn’t love, it’s like.

You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am i right? It isn’t love, it’s lust.

Are you proud and eager to show them off? It isn’t love, it’s pride.

Do you want them because you know they’re there? It isn’t love, it’s loneliness.

Are you there because it’s what everyone wants? It isn’t love, it’s loyalty.

Are you there because they kissed you or held your hand? It isn’t love, it’s low confidence.

Do you stay for their confessions of love because you don’t want to hurt them? It isn’t love, it’s pity.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes you skip a beat? It isn’t love, it’s infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them? It isn’t love, it’s friendship.

Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of? It isn’t love, it’s a lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favourite things for their sake? It isn’t love, it’s charity.

Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad? Then it’s love.

Do you cry for their pain even when they’re strong? Then it’s love.

Do their eyes see your true heart and touch your soul so deeply, it hurts? Then it’s love.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there? Then it’s love.

Do you accept their faults because they’re a part of who they are? Then it’s love.

Are you attracted to others but stay with them faithfully without regret? Then it’s love.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?

Think about it for a second.

For Me and Hairul,

Its Everything cos he is my Enemy, Best Friend and Lover.

taken from; NAZEEHAAAAA ~ :D

090408.

2010-04-17T22:04:00.002+08:00

I'm so glad we're back together on track.

;)

not exactly.. but yeah.

i do love him a lot.

i know last time, i used to critise him like ****.

well, deep inside i knew i have never ever meant a single thing i've said.

bottomline: Big Time Ego. ha ha.

well this time, i reallyy hope that we won't be like last time.

you know, i know ;)

I do really need you as you're the only one would make me feel much better , you would the one which is damn straightforward to me, you being sacarstic and caring at the same time. (other than my sis :p).

Haha.

I'm just glad we've made it this far.

Though it's just 2 years plus, we've been through alot.

okay la. not that much but i know i won't be able to move on without you.

say whatever you want but i know, i truly love him.

NadraHairul ; Since: 090408.

It Used to Be Impossible.

With Hope and Faith, Miracles will Happen.

and, You are my Miracle :)

Pit! 2 years ^^

2010-04-09T16:07:00.004+08:00

Bbq Pit was fuunnnnnn~

It's been a loongg time since almost all of us met up .

sadly, i need to go home fast :(

oh well, lots of people were missed !

esp: Isma, Amirah and Faizahh.

I was really glad to see you guys again !

hope one day we girls go out?

misses.

more pics on Isma's Blog!

okay byeeee~

HAPPY 2 YEARS ANNIVERSARY DEARRRRR! i Love You!!!!^^

Dear and Mlysia Trip :D

2010-03-22T09:26:00.006+08:00

Dear ;)

PICS from Mlysia :)

------
Leaving Mlysia :(

Bermis Pool

Irritating sis ;P

One time, i saw those two monkeys Fcuking :O

Our Hotel ;)

Hills near Cameron Highlands.

Sunset.

Sunwayyyyyyyy Lagoon !

I treated familia !

Roller Coaster :D

Hotel View

-------

done uploading !

some onlyyyyyy. haha.

will update more after work olrite !

and yeah, i didn't call you names, bitch.

infact, i treated you as my own sister.

cheapskate?

haha.

g o d.

LOVE you.

im soryy about what happened yestd:'(

nadrahairul ~

2010-03-21T11:27:00.002+08:00

Dear, i'm glad we're going back to our old happy ways :)
thought you wouldn't accept me, ever again.
but thank you for giving us another chance to work things out between each other.

day by day, you make me love you more and more just like i did back when i was in sec 4 :)
i love that feeling.
i don't care what people says about you now cos i know you are really trying to change.
let's take things slowly and you know, i could wait for you.. until god knows when ;)

will put our pice soon and stop nagging at me to update my blog!
haha. i kan busy .
btw, i hope you really liked the gifts i bought for you and i'm sorry if it's only a few things, dear :(

OKAY !
i went M.I.A for 5 days cos went to KL :):)
and, many more places.
will put the pics soon.
and Dear cannot stop messaging me that he misses me :P
awwww, i miss you toooooo~
heh.
REBOND-ED my hair too~
and dear LOVES it :D
(i love it when he stares at me :P)

okay , need to go now.
will update more soon :)

Dear, trust us and we will work this out :)

Love You, Mohamed Hairul

Mwahhhhhhhhh~

23 months

2010-03-09T22:45:00.002+08:00

to think that i would even trust you.

again.

i felt hurt and used.

AGAIN.

:'(

i was the ONLY one who thot you could change.

i believed in you.

time and again, you let me down.

i dunno what to do.

again.

thot it would end.

it didn't.

i was wrong.

this time.

:'(

1 year 11 months.

2010-03-08T09:18:00.002+08:00

heloooo!
not updating for a longlong time.
haha.
well, been busy with work and strangely, both laptops at home dah rosakkkkkkkk :(
updating at work now !
heee.

will be starting school real soon and i am so happyyy!
but quitting job too :(
haha.
will be joining back S.R soon though!

and yeah, guys are getting more sickO nowadays.
-.-
fuck it la, didn't even expect him to do that to me :'(

da, i need to work now.
bye~

girls, i miss you!

2010-02-14T19:30:00.002+08:00

i miss you guys :(

i miss you guys advising me and being there for me :(

really hope to see some of the familiar faces in my new class :)

i love you girls.!

mwahhhhhhhh :)

and, happy valentine's day to all you guys out there.

as for me?

no dates this year :)

all those words spoken will never be forgotten.

A Y U T

2010-02-05T13:00:00.002+08:00

hellloooooooo :)
am going out sooon.
and yeah, i cant wait !

and people, both of us are gonna be back in action.
but not for now.
guessssss la ehhh ;)

ehwhyyoutee is mine.
and im his !

gtg, bye :)

2010-01-20T17:02:00.002+08:00

dammit.
making a fucking big mistake.
i hate this.
ignorance.
tahts what i feel like doing it to you.
but i cnt help it, you're a nice guy.

going back to the past or moving forward.
I D K.
well, let's just see what gonna happen now.

Promise to Self: To be single for 2 years.
seriously, it's gonna happen.
And Thahirah, DON'T LAUGH.
i mean it okay.

And this pkcik tue keep saying sorry to me cos he didn't reply when i text him "Gd Mrnin"
haha. cute siaa.
and he made and effort saying "Gd Nyte :)"
haha, giler kan si dekni.
but oh well, he's still cute.
okay, stop it.

and yeah, I am freaking terrified of BANGLAS now.
well, when A heard it he said, " jage biler u balek. nnty drg rogol u baru u tau. i tkle tlg tauu."
-.-

da la.
gonna start work soon.
aidil tngah makan nasi ayam dier.
mcm sedaaaaap je.
hehe.
A pon makan nasi ayam nyari.
Okay aku dah start mrepek.

bye.

you :)

2010-01-13T13:17:00.005+08:00

you were the first person that i would want to listen to.
the way you say it to me was different.
I felt i could understand someone.
you could feel my pain and understand me.
i love that.
i love that feeling.
it makes me smile and somehow, my pain would just fade away.

to be frank, my feeling's for you is getting deeper.
but i told you, i wouldn't want to move that fast.
oh my, seeing you smile and your pics could just make me melt and smile to myself everytime.
I would always wait for that msg or call from you cos i know i would feel happy everytime when i see your name popping out.
and yeah, i'm really sory that i didnt msg you back cos i was sleeping.
ha ha.

Oh yes,
finally i am happier now.
Thank you pakcik tue :P
yes, he is veryvery old.
( he's only 20 )
and jyeah, your muscles are Hot Hot Hot.
But yeah, thats just fats kan?
ha ha ! i know .

And yeah, i havent bathe yet.
Should be going now before that pakcik tue starts nagging at me
heheheeeeeeeeeee.
i loooooooove this feeling. !

okay, gtg.
bye :)

i was blessed to find you during my darkest period.
Love A :)

-

2010-01-09T19:43:00.003+08:00

this would prolly be the last time im writing on this blog.

Well, I'm not that sure about that.

I'm not sure what i really want now.

I'm really confused.

okay.

im being very stupid here.

i need you badly.

i need someone to talk to me.
:'(

bye 2009

2010-01-02T12:26:00.003+08:00

to summarise 2009 up,
the year had its moments.
The good, the bad and those times which you dont even wanna have.
but truthfully, 2009 is a year that i'll remember for quite a long time and jyeah fuck every bad times.
Thanks to everyone who was always thr for me throughout the year.

And to you, Happy New Year.
I told everything on the msg.
ha ha.

Okay, 2010 !!!
i just hope it will be a nice year !
(pls pls)
hehs!
and yeah, the end of 2009 marks a new beginning for my 2010.
:)

Fuck the past and Hellooooooooo 2010 !
:)

Sadly, A is sicckkkk.
Tu la, minom bnyk lagy!
:P

Btw, i didn't broke my 17 years of promise to myself.
I hope i will never have to break it!

New Year Resolution:
Forget the Past
Stop using vulgarities unless thr's a reason. ( confirm this one cannot make it )
Being nicer and more understanding.
Studystudystudy to get into Poly! ^^
Save enough money to get hair rebonded.
TRY being a good muslim . ( LMAO )
And lastly, control my temper :P

new start

2009-12-27T13:55:00.005+08:00

you said that im the only one

you said that im your number 1

now your gone

and i feel numb tell me where do we go wrong

you are my best friend and boyfriend

now its seems like you're my worst friend

i gotta do soul searching

without you im a whole different person

i aint acting like i used to

i don't feel loved like i used to

it was your love i was used to

why do i had to lose your love

.your love your love your love is what it was.

i cried and felt miserable for one whole month.

But yestd, i felt like i was so happy and i kept smiling and smiling like some crazy person in the mrt.

I felt like i had the feeling of loving you for the first time.

:):):):)

you know that.

miss you and i know you miss me too.

HAHA.

okay, i should stop putting high hopes on this.

heh.

hmmm, work yestd was damn tiring! seriously.

But, it was really fun with Linette around.

Thanks alot :)

Oh yes, lemme tell what happened at my work.

Me and Linette were at the SND Reception Counter and near the tables and chairs, we saw this 2 vietnam/ thailand women.

They looked like transvestites i tell you.
and, they sitting on those ULTRA small chairs and posing like some prostitutes !

omg, and their poses are so damn DISGUSTING la.

Linette was like cursing them, "Eh this is Sentosa Nature Discovery okay. NOT some prostitute place, face like fuck and small boobs then want to stick them out"

LOL, then Linette go and do the pose when they went away.

-.-

Then got one more.

There's this caucasian women and she wanted to breast feed her child.

So, Linette let her breastfeed behind the reception counter.

Suddenly, got this China guy looking at reception counter and he double looked at the women who was breastfeeding. !!

Prevert asshole right?

Then, Linette gave him a dirty look but HE WAS STILL TRYING TO LOOK AGAIN.

-.-

Finally, he moved.

BTW, the china guy was married !

-.- -.-

Suddenly Linette said," Nadrah. no wonder he keep looking at the woman which was breastfeeding! See his wife la! Boobs so small confirm the nipple also small! Thats why he wanted to see the caucasian women one, see how pink her nipple is! Two black nipples not enough meh to see???! "

OMFG, i laughed and laughed till my stomach hurts.

I tell you, got more.

Manymany more but im too lazy to type.

haha.

I guess, SND is not that bad.

IF you have someone to accompany you.:(

Okay la, off to search new songs.

Till Then,

Tc :):):):)

Btw, i cant resist this ULTRA cute Chipettes !!!!

And this is my Idol. Rihanna, you're fucking hot i swear!

haha, mcm lesbian gitu.

Both of us say stupid things and we take them back.

Cos we know we both will search for one another one day.

2009-12-23T17:00:00.002+08:00

life sucks.

and, when you called me and talked to me i felt that i could just be by your side .

two days straight of not hearing your voice and i feel like i want to kill myself.

A, im really sorry.

takecare.

To H,

i do miss you.

Alot.

but you got someone already :)

time to move on.

you takecare too.

For now, i think i'll just ignore everything and please 2010, let it be a relaxing and "un"stressful year for me.

:)
i just hope to take a break from this cruel reality.

busyyy

2009-12-17T21:58:00.003+08:00

Hey, here for a quick2 update.

Went to PH at tamp on Mon and damn was tiring.

Here are a few pics.

Sorry, blog giler so i cnt load all.

Maybe next tyme :)

Mate fuuuuuh :)

I should really be going now.

btw, i am working at Animal Encounter @ Sentosa.

-.-

Finally, re-united with them.

geddit?

bye~

have a baby by me !

it's Pig's bday today!

Nyari bday kau babisundal :):):):)

new year

2009-12-13T23:18:00.003+08:00

i am really scared right that would happen.

for now, i think im trying to move on.

lets hope time heals everything.

i really love your vioce :)

can you just talk everytime?

heeee.

happy new year for islam!

falling for you

2009-12-10T13:41:00.003+08:00

you :)

HAHA.

I woke up 2 am in the morning yestd to receive some stupid message.
I am still laughing from this S-T-U-P-I-D Crap!

haha, you have my phone number kan?

Text up if you are still not satisfied okay?

Btw, i'm soooooo glad that i have broke up with you :)

What? telling your NEW gf about my life?

omg, thats soooo lame when your NEW gf tried to make me pissed about my Family Break-Up.

-.-

Don't worry, telling other people about me ey?

Well if you wanna play that game, i will just be watching it.

Enough of playing along with you.

So Immature.

Luckily, B told me not to do anything.

Hahaaaa~

he can really know how im feeling :)

andand, i sooooo love today^^

i am falling for you.

baby by me

2009-12-09T16:48:00.002+08:00

You have to meet a few wrong ones before you can appreciate the right one
Goodbyes make you think.
They make you realize what you have, what you’ve lost, and what you’ve taken for granted.

Many can make you smile.
Many can make you cry.
But it takes really someone special to make you smile with tears in the eyes.

Omg, these quotes really helped me alot. thanks to darleen and my sis.
Not forgetting Raudaa, Atiqah and Imah who also gave me the strength to really move on :)

I am so pissed with myself right now.
But strangely, i will smile whenver i think of youuuuuuuuu :O

(Today's the 9th which was supposed to be our 1 year 8 months if we were still together)

Remember the past and move on slowly.
Time will heal and never force yourself as you know that you are living in a lie.

love leaves a memory which nobody can steal .

B, i want to hear your sweet voice.
A-

move along

2009-12-07T19:23:00.004+08:00

hello :)

gua happy !

i smile every time i see your msg, i smile everytime i hear your voice andand i feel happy when you cheer me up!~

boy, i know we just known each other recently.

but i would just melt and go happyyyyyyyyy whenever your name appears at my phone.

Thanks alot for being there when i need someone.

You really cheer me up and never fail to make me smile .

I thought only one guy could do all this.

But you proved me wrong.

True, i will never forget what you have done to me.

All those sweet memories won't be forgotten but instead it will be cherished and be replaced by someone who is much better.

And, if any of you are still trying to make us go back together again, well fat hope.

No more hopes.

I am really tired and i am slowly moving on.(with the help from him and friends)

Thanks alott.

Anyway, i am starting work soon at Sentosa with Nini ^

hehs.

cant wait!

Afiq

B! U gemuuuk, step macho and sexy voicee~

There's gonna be One Less Lonely Girl ;)

last day of school

2009-12-01T18:45:00.005+08:00

Last tyme wearing the red shirt!

(for this year)

the last day of school yestd.

tears were shed.

:'(

i am gonna miss you guys.

Will miss the OB kecohness.

will miss the times.

I will Remember you peeps !

Love you^^

(will update more soon)

I looove your sexy voice^^

Afiq~

A Story

2009-12-01T00:03:00.004+08:00

Let me tell you a story.
you may choose to believe it, or not. :)

Once, a girl got to know this purely innocent guy.
She doesn't even imagine that they will be together one day.

On 090408, they eventually became an item.
They had happy times when starting of the relationship.
It was when the collection of N level results everything turned downfall.
The girl made the guy cried and he suffered in silence.

He pleaded to the girl and finally, the girl went back to him.
But, it wasn't the way they thought it would be.
The girl went to Blaze Camp and the guy thought she fell in love with the new friend that she made.
She said it wasn't true but the guy didn't want to accept that fact.

It was then 050409 they broke off.
They went seperate ways but suddenly the girl felt the guy was the only one for her.
She pleaded and begged but sadly, the guy didn't want to accept her.

The girl went to her friends for help but her friends told her to forget about him.
She ignored their advice and chose to be with him.

After 6 gruelling months, the guy finally realized that the girl was for him.
He said to the girl he would be with her forever.
The girl was so contented that all she could think was him.
They thought they could be happy again with each other by their side.
Again, they were wrong.

They started to quarrel over the silliest things which could end up big.
The girl tried to change that bad temper of hers.
She changed almost everything for that guy.
Silently, the guy was contacting other girls when the girl was so deeply in love with him.
She didn't even knew what was going on.

Then, on 281109, the guy asked for a break without giving the girl a reason.
The girl kept wondering and asking the guy but all he could say is that he doesn't love that girl anymore.

Today, the girl met him to give his stuffs back and the girl asks for his handphone as she wanted to know whether they guy has deleted every single one of their memories.
To her sadness, he did without feeling anything.

The girl was so angry and confused that she check his messages.
And, she was so shocked that the guy has been contacting someone.
Whereas he said he wanted freedom and not any relationship.

The guy wanted his phone back but the girl didn't want to give him.
They were fighting and she bite the guy's hand until it turned blue-black.
The guy was so fed-up and he alighted immediately.
The girl was so furious that she screamed and hit the guy non-stop demanding him who was he contacting.

The guy didn't want to tell and they ended up fighting.
The girl got so insane that she kept clinging on the guy.
She was crying and crying thinking why the guy had a heart to to this.
The guy got pissed and asked her to go away or he would be changing number.

The girl then said she would give the guy to do anything he wants even if he is contacting with other girls.
That was how desperate she was.
The guy then kept saying straight to her face that he doesn't have feelings for her anymore.

She didn't care.
She loved him too much.
The guy said she was selfish thinking about her own self .

In the end, the girl tries to forget about him.
But, who was she trying to kid?

Now, she is wondering why did the guy made her feel this way?
His birthday is coming up and the girl is trying to forget him.
Sadly, she can't.
She is now waiting and hoping.

In the mean time, a guy from her past is contacting her back.
She feels a bit happier now.
She hopes God will give her the strength to move on.
And to the guy,

May God Bless You. :)

Please, no one is at fault.

Do takecare of Yourself.

:'(

happy~

2009-11-23T21:53:00.003+08:00

Firstly, i love youuuu Md Hairul !!!
hehs.
your bday's coming kaaaaan?
nak beli kan ape :0
idk!
nak air max, i touch, new balance track shoes,etc.
haiyoooo, mahal naaaah~
pengsan ku :(

BEST FRIENDS !!!! Raudah ngan Atiqah bday pon nk dekat.
Hehs.
:)
Korang nak ape ehh?
hahahaa~
(simpan cake tuu from 2 dec eh nak?)

exams coming so, not much updates.
sorry!

till then,
TC. :)

i sooooo love him~

2009-11-19T11:00:00.005+08:00

hello?
what do you mean by i am disgracing you at your blog?

please eh.

i msged you.

and then you called me.

i told you that i post something about you.

i think your were blabbering about something till you didn't even hear what i'm saying.

BUT, not only you okay?

get your facts right first.

true you took me when nobody wants me but i am not talking about that.

It is when you were with THAT guy then you started to change.

DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE TOLD ME YOU USED ME?

if i am your BEST FRIEND, why the hell you should say other girls were the ones who were there for you, bla bla, bla.

you have never realised it.

you willingly CALLED your other friends at night to pour your feelings out which you just known for a few months rather than me. i didn't even got to know you were fighting with him or you had a new blog till Tuesday.

Sadly, your "true" friends knew it first, everytime.

you keep telling me that i am your "best" friend but everytime you have someone waaaaayy better than me, you wont even want to search for me. i call you but you didn't even pick up.

you off your phone? When You Wake Up, you can call right?

you sacrificed most of your money and time for him but for me it is only once in a while?

and you DID ditched me before just because of THAT GUY.

you want to talk about money?

you should have known what i gave you and did to your hair.
FYI, IT IS MY OWN MONEY.

about _ _ _ ,
ask ANYONE who knows you for quite sometime how you TEASE and DISTURB people.
haiyoooo.

true, i can't go out at night.
but when i want to meet you or call you, there's always something there that you can't meet me just for a short while.

you are fighting to be strong?
i told you to move on and you are still waiting for him.
do you even listen to me??

nevermind, you have better friends who can be there for you through THICK or THIN.
sadly until now, i thought i could depend on you to be that person.
i guess i was wrong.
thinking back, i will never forget you that told people i am just "somebody" that you are just using.

i am glad you have done sooo much for me.
i will remember that.
tc, my friend.

2009-11-18T23:03:00.002+08:00

fuck it.

friends are not meant to be trusted.

i trusted you.

this is not for only one person.

all you did was to make me ashamed and i don't think i am labelled as your "best friend".

So Much For Saying It.

LIAR.

seriously, i can't trust you people anymore.

perhaps only raudah and atiqah knows.

AKU DA MALAS NAK CARIK KAWAN MCM KORANG.

enough.

take care okay.

eh, favour uh.

mentang2 kau da rapat ngan kwn2 lamer aku, tkyah la nk show-off.

(jangan terase)^^

dead and sick

2009-11-15T18:56:00.005+08:00

this blog seems to be d-e-a-d.
really dead.

to isma,
cheer up darling.
i'm here for you and you know that.
Love is not all about taking.
It is also to make sacrifices for your loved one.

i did and he stayed with me till now :)
sometimes, karma gets back to you in an unexpected way.

okay la.

Tomorrow is BEG Exam!
argh.
i sooooo blame my teacher for not doing theory with us.
heeee~

okay, aku nk berambos.
bye.

what if ?

2009-11-10T18:26:00.006+08:00

Have you ever wondered,

Will he be the one for you,

For your entire life?

I kept pondering and the answer seems to be "Yes" everytime.

I ponder again,

"Am i really in love with him?"

That seems to be simple.

But, what if...

Someone close to you doesn't seem to accept him?

Would those answers have you leaving in pondering again?

True, i love him.

But, what if you needed to choose between him or the person that you're close to?

It will just leave me questioning myself what i had answered.

AyutNutdz'

People, we are way stronger than you think :)

stressed !

2009-11-10T15:07:00.003+08:00

PM 1 project - Not Done !

ugh.

Anyway, ystd's plan didn't went well.
But, i've made a promise to myself :)

Oh well, exams are coming up soooooon.
mugg.
:(

till then,
tc !

Pre-Seventeenth !

2009-11-07T22:20:00.006+08:00

Haziqqqqqqq! Uncle Felix bought for us ! how sweet~
Cute Catty.

Makan at MAD JACKK :)
My Cake .

Nazurah drew something.
Nazurah's

Nazeeha's

Ibu's

Mines and Uncle Felix's

Muke pucattttt.

Went to Mad Jack ystd and it was like a family gathering.

Sedaaaaaaaaap !

hehes^^

got two treats ystd sehhh.

What Bby gave !

Some Random pics i took with him at bus! gile.

HAHAHAHA! budak metta!

UP YOURS!!! -.-

bapok sesattt! :P

hehs.

Seventeenth in a few hours time.

wooooo~

Thanks to Familia and Bby for giving me a pleasant eating venture.

HAH.

till then, love you.

bye.

You know, our love is stronger each day and year.

oh, i just love you Mohamed Hairul :)

love = hairul

2009-11-06T13:37:00.002+08:00

What a pleasant surprise today.

Got an Adidas Slipper, a Carebear bolster and a cute tortoise from my Love ^^
(Well, in the morning we were fighting though)
And a treat at Swensens.
I ate Curry Baked Rice, Clam Chowder soup and Shiitake Mushroom thingy.
Sodaaaaaaap!
He ate only Fish Baked Rice cos' he ate at LJ already. ALONE -.-
:)
Well, it didn't last long as he went to Azaad's house after that.
But overall, it was a nice day.

i love you, BBY!!!

will update when there's time again.

And 2 more days to Seventeenth and i am so not forward to look at it this year.
:(

Falling Apart;

Tremendously.

2009-10-26T20:35:00.003+08:00

i love you more than anything else.
Bby, i promise you we will last.
Forever, I Promise.

AyutNutdz'

Oh yessss,

ONE more week to;

17th ;)

gf's

2009-10-17T20:13:00.003+08:00

god, i miss my gfs.
each of us busy with our own lives.
when can we all meet up again?

:(

to Bby, imysm!

Exams are coming soon.
ha ha.
i'm scared.
really.

till then,

tc .

AyutNutdz'

2009-10-14T21:05:00.003+08:00

you know i love you more !
ily^^

dun get so worked up.
we can work on our tempremental behaviours out.
:)

ilysm, BotakBoy !

starting afresh

2009-10-11T21:43:00.006+08:00

Baby <3

ahhhhhh~ hot!
nazurah.

My Brother :)
nazeeha.

looks evil right !?

new hair :)

sorry for the long absence.
ha ha.
tomorrow's school re-opens.
i can't wait.

new hairdo.
new handphone.
new life (a chance).
of course, same ol' boyf :P

well, i cut my hair.
yup :)

isma's bday coming up.
my sis's too.
obviously, MINES first.
Hmm, what do i want?
:P

just excited for tomorrow.
:)
weeeeee~

alright then, need my sleep.
bye :)

p.s: i gotta new number.
^-^

tag replies:

/kk: -.-

/dyana: hello dyana! imy moreeee :( hello !

/Isma: ape kau nk Wak Pagek? :P

aku pon siaa.

meet up soooon :)

/ferra: okay,done babe :)

it's those sincerity that moves me

2009-10-05T22:40:00.002+08:00

i love todayy.

thanks baby :)

ily^^

to azaad, hehee~ i was wrong.

thanks though^^

okay, i love hairul and everyone in the family knows i have a boyf :)

bye.

2008 pics

2009-10-02T14:03:00.005+08:00

was browsing through the camera and found some 2008 pics.
My! my hair got longer . :)

the first date with Bby ;)

haha! muke sec school. :P

see my red lips? that's what you get after eating my nenek's rendang.

ibu going to Germany.

heheeee.

tukar bnyk tak?

Bby! your tag sweeett nyeeeeerrr.

*melts*

heeeee~

i loveee you more okay?

yeahh.

okay then, i gtg.

tc bby, ily^^

misses

2009-09-29T15:37:00.008+08:00

You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself

Let you go

Now the lesson's learned

I touched it

I was burned

Oh I think you should know,

Thinking of You Bby :')
hello :)
at Bugis Lib now.
i'm like bored .
girls,imysm!
plus Bby, of course :)

i've yet to get my pics.
:)

Bby,
i rindu u banget.
biler nk jumpe lagii?
i larp u daaaaa ;P

okay la, gtg.
till then.
:)

Even though it's struggle love is all we got,
And we gonna keep keep climbin till the mountain top!
;)
One time Baby, One time :D

Baby, you're the person i think of every day,hour and minute.

i just miss you my Love .

raye part 1

2009-09-28T16:33:00.008+08:00

Hello! these are the pics that was from raya.
Njoy :)

yes, my irritating lil sis.

Razam muke evil seh!

Haziq BBy :)

Playing with Fireworks :)

Waah, tense siak muke!

Happpy ^^

Razan's Bdae cum Hari Raya.

1st Day of Raya!

idk why these two pics are small.
at Fish and Co.

HAZIIIQQ :)

yes, its her AGAIN :P

otp

OK, BUROKKK.

ok then.

next post will be about Hari Raya with ex 4n2's!

if i can get it from Ismasam :)

bye.

imy,baby!

2009-09-23T15:26:00.001+08:00

202.52.99.66

Hmm, i wonder who's IP Address is this?

Mind emailing me who you are before i do something? :)

ty.

Hairul, imy :'(

Selamat Hari Raya

2009-09-21T22:40:00.007+08:00

Hello :)
Firstly, i want to wish all Muslims Selamat Hari Raya and forgive me if i have done anything bad towards you guys.

Okay, 1st Day was.. not my day.

ha ha.

Everything didn't seemed right.

Anw, i miss my Hairul aLOT.

:'(
seriously, i miss him.

i miss everything about you, dear.

i miss my carebear too.

I'm at my Gran's crib,fyi.

My dad threw me out of the house.

yup.

So, i won't be there for now.
God knows why he behaved like that.

Will upload Pics from Hari Raya when i get them.

i miss my boy. :(

Tc, my Baby.

i miss you.

i love you.
and, i need you.

:'(

When can i get to see you again?

Hiatus

2009-09-18T09:00:00.002+08:00

3 Weeks of Holidays are starting next week.

I am so not looking forward to it :(

3 Weeks of not meeting you, not receiving your hugs and kisses.

:'(

I'm gonna miss you, Bby.

And, i love you so much.

TakeCare, My Love.

P.s: I'm Not going to Blaze (II) due to some mothafucking person who told the teacher-in-charge that i can't go.
I repeat, the mothafucking person who is a nosy-parker :)
Eff the effing shit outta your small ass-hole.
grr.

Menses is K-i-ll-i-n-g Me S L O W L Y.

Updates won't be as recent and apologies for not replying tags.
This is called Plain Lazy.

Okay, i'm done.
Anything beep me through Hairul.
He's my Secetary ;)
Bye Loves~

BEG Test

2009-09-15T10:07:00.010+08:00

Hello !
Yesterday was my BEG(Business Etiqutte and Grooming) Test.
We needed to dress up and make-up.
Here are the pics i took.
:)

Everyone lawa kan?

:)
Imagine if it was Prom Night, confirm everyone dress up better.!

****

At the Lib with my irritating boyf.

hee~

cuci mate pat sape pon ku tak tau lerr.

thanks for re-linking me back.

k byeee .!

i Love You, Hairul <3

17 months !

2009-09-09T17:39:00.002+08:00

090909.

Happy One Year and 5 Months, Mohamed Hairul <3

Old times.

2009-09-08T10:27:00.002+08:00

AHH !
old times.
i look well, stupid.
In any case, our love back then was stronger.
:)

I wish, our feelings were the same as those times.
:')

lifeless

2009-09-08T08:55:00.005+08:00

I'm being very understanding.
This is not me.
Why am i behaving like this?
Am i losing trust towards him?
Is that the most specific reason?

Or maybe, i'm just letting you free just because i want to see you happy.
Happy with meeting your friends, hanging out with your female colleagues or maybe.. working on the same day with the person whom you used to love.
Surprisingly, i let him off and did all this.
This is seriously N-O-T me.

Where has the over-protective, impatient and selfish Nadrah has gone to?
Miraculously, i've changed.
(am i serious?)
But, is it for the better?
Is my mindset of thinking, "never mind, i'm still his gf" correct?

I don't know.
Seriously.
You can be sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare.
I'm choosing the latter if it makes you happy.

Those actions and those words, it means alot.

Thank you for the Green Carebear, Teddy bear, Our Pink book not forgetting My Ring, Love.

Before i go,
What's with people doing "up yours" sign?
and
People having Tagged are Mats/Minahreps !

Bye;)

Army Open House 09'

2009-09-06T15:42:00.002+08:00

Some pics from Army Open House.
from, D.C ;)

Bby is really tired today. :(
Go rest okay?
ily^^

Loving you,Always.

2009-09-02T08:32:00.012+08:00

Ashraf, Happy 17th !
May God Bless You,Love.^^
***

i am so glad i found my pretty-boy.
Looking back at my ex's now, i feel i'm more "contented" that i've moved on.
Ha Ha.

Seriously.
i'm so happy.
oh yes, 5 more days to 17 months of knowing each other, <3.

2009-08-31T07:43:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ONE OF MY FIVE BESTIES, MIIRAH GILER !!!
;)

Harap2 la kau pass O's and Have a looooong relationship with EZ okay?
i love you so much^^

To, Duyung
From,Orix :P

Moved to another link.
Cos' i hate it when nosy-parkers like you read.
:) byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

blamed.

2009-08-28T15:04:00.004+08:00

i'm tired.
another day of misery and no one was there for me.
i hate this feeling.
i have this urge to actually kill myself.
i have no one to blame.
but,myself.

and to you,
everything i did is for the best .

don't think negatively.

i miss ibu :'(

guilt

2009-08-23T23:27:00.002+08:00

Hey!
currently having a shelter above me now.
thank god !
those who feel guilty should know what happened.
well, i didn't start the screamings first.

won't elaborate much but thanks to the people who helped me and don't bother contacting me for now cos' my hp has been taken away.
yes,sadly :(

Don't worry, i'm safe now and come to think of it i've been smoking for years and it doesn't even affects my studies.
What makes you people think that way?
Just bcos' of one tiny mistake, (which doesn't even lands me into jail) you guys judge me wrongly.

okay, you guys don't need to know where i am.
bye.

Always by your side

2009-08-21T16:57:00.008+08:00

if you could see
that i'm the one
who understands you
been here all along
so why can't you
see you belong with me
you belong with me <3

You know, it hurts when someone so close to you actually insult your boyf in a way.
No, I'm not angry or pissed off but i never ever did that to you.
i know you have issues with him for some time but he has never ever actually insult you on your physical look.
Yes, it's true many people have called him that but why should you?
you can just say,"I don't like him" or etc but you insulted him.
he has never even done anything to you.
Has he?

I know you hate him cos' of his attitude but there's no need to insult his features.
you may think it's just a joke but what if I said your boyf is like so ugly or he stinks like he hasn't bathe for years?

I have never ever insult the people whom you loved but why should you do that to mines?
I never did that cos' i respected you.
I have never said anything that's negative about any guy that you had.
Like everyone else, he has feelings too.

If you're not happy about him, he will be glad to talk things out with you.
In the first place, he didn't even did anything wrong towards you.
I know he has some bad points but not only him, right?
Why must you really hate him?
If you said you're okay with him, why should you pass that rude remark to his brother?
If i were A***d,i would actually confront you already.

That remark just shows how true our friendship is now.
My close friends have never even said that to me.
Why should you?
I thought you were the best among everyone.
I was totally wrong.

Thanks for everything.
Tc.

Here are some of the pics just now.
Till then,
Tc:)

cute kan BbyKu? :P

i made them did this !
heeeee~
like girlsss.

I have always thought you would be the one always supporting me.
But this clearly shows you didn't.

To Bby, i will love you always.
Ibu, please be okay.
love you.

2009-08-20T08:35:00.005+08:00

BE JEALOUS COS'

I"M GOING FOR BLAZE (II) CAMP!
i write again uh, BLAZE TWOOOOOOO :)
weeee~

Will be from 28 Sept to 1 Oct 2009.
Did i mention Overseas?~

happyhappyhappy^^

ok,i'm really tired of updating these days.
And, today's my photo-taking :)

Lastly, i hate my fcuking principal.
-.-"

Many have called but the chosen is YOU

2009-08-17T20:21:00.003+08:00

hey!
i love yoou.
sorry about the fight just now :(
i miss your morning smell :P
and your kissable lips.

When I met you boy my heart went knock knock
Now them butterflies in my stomach won't stop stop
And even though it's a struggle love is all we got
So we gonna keep keep climbin till the mountain top

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart (I got my)

Your my one love
My one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
I'm a tell you one time
And I'm a be your one guy
You'll be my #1 boy
always makin time for you
I'm'a tell you one time
I'm'a tell you one time

-Loving You Always,
Mohamed Hairul.

i love hairul infinity <3

2009-08-15T17:07:00.003+08:00

I loove it when he does that :)

stayed home all day today DUE TO SOME CHANGED PLANS.
-.-"
i'm okay, not that angry though.
got to rest and chill.

Bro's bday celebration is today.!
Myy masak SODAAAAP :)
okay la.
gonna do some fb-ing.

Bye:)

aiyaaaaamak! nadrah masaaaai :P

Me and Sis :)

*p.s: i look younger !
:P

tag replies!
/kk: duuh! SONG STEALER ! :P
/babe: awwww, thks ^^
/munira: yupyup! coincidence ey? meh kite khawin on the same date !! HAHAAHAHA~ you last long too^^

2009-08-14T07:45:00.003+08:00

(taken from kak's blog)

that is Haziq Daniel~
My brother^^
And surprisingly, Nabil's bday is the next day after Haziq was born.
Cool huh?

Gonna meet Mom tomorrow.
Therefore, i'm gonna take maaaaanyyy pics.!
:P

***
Everyone says they understand me.
Well, from my judgement you guys don't.
:(
i hate life.
Arguments and Dissatisfaction, can they just be removed from my life?
ARGH!

i need you.
Bby.

missing you(s).

2009-08-12T19:58:00.005+08:00

You know, i miss you guys.
:'(
terribly.
those times, were the best.
*smiles.

***

And you,
I love you so much.
:)
I can never stop thinking of you my Bby.
The greatest gift God ever gave me was having someone beside me and understanding me.
That's you.
{:

Oh yes, today on 2.51pm at East Shore Hospital, Haziq Daniel Bin Hamizan Merkel, was born.
And, he is the brother of mines^^
Alhamdullilah my mom and him and healthy and safe.

My, how much i miss you all .
Can i rewind those times again?
Please.

making mistakes is the only way you will change.

2009-08-12T06:48:00.006+08:00

Now the past

Has come alive
And given meaning
And a reason
To give all I can
To believe once again
In you <3

To you,
I love you so much and you know how far i can go just to make you happy right?
True, we have been through alot before getting back together AND that will be a lesson for both of us.
I'm so glad that you're trying your best to understand me.
I will do the same for you too.

Pasts really helps to change someone.
From there, you will learn your mistake.
I did, and i'm glad you gave me a second chance.
:)
Lastly,
You know i love you more, Bby!

I may be a bitch but i will never be one towards you.
Again.

Before i end my post, my hands are really itchy to type something out.
So, here it goes!

AhemAhem, may i know why aren't you tagging me or insulting me again?
Perhaps, i have hit the raw nerve?
hah.
Next time, don't try to be the big one here if you have nothing to fight about with me.
I have always kept quiet and giving in during the Secondary school days.
But,not anymore,ass.
You may not know me but lemme tell you something.
If i know i'm in the right, god knows how far i can go just to prove my innocence.
(Unless Bby doesn't want me to have conflict with that person)
But, I'M SO GLAD every single one of us which is the ex-4N2's are behind me.
and, some ex-4N1 boys though.^^

All of us will just wait and see what you're gonna do next.
Sucha coward i tell you.
C'mon, i do want to meet you, TinaLahabau :D

OK !
dah,aku dabes type.

And to Shazlina, please gimme ur pics?!
:P

K bye!

Tag Replies!
/Isma: very true darlinggg! heh. just ignore them darl.
parents never teach them manners.
tsktsk.
oh well, IMY and the other 3 !:(
/irin: hey! thanks alot^^
/(",): hahaha! that one is freakking sacarstic ya'know !
/Ayut bby: FINALLY, u bace blog i :P
Aik, mmg btol ape u kate.!
TRUE, my blog song is nice! heh.
And Bby, i love you moreeeee :P
Forever?
yes!!!! :)

2009-08-09T16:16:00.015+08:00

Ey pompan yang so-called TINA,
kau better reveal yourself skrang jugak uh.
sialan punye anak haram.

i don't mind if you want to critise me.
BUT NEVER EVER disturb my friends.
Disturb them, you disturb me.

Amacam?
Jumpe uh aku.
Aku pon nk tngok muke kau la pukimak.
KAU SUKE KUTOK2 orang, AKU NK TNGOK BRAPE LAWA UH KAU SKRANG.
kimak, ntah2 GEMOK ATAU MUKE IKAN YANG DIPIJAK/BNYK COINS PAT BADAN KNOWN AS KUDIS.
hahaha!
SAPE MAKAN CHILLI TERASE PEDAS EY !!

kau pikir aku ngn pmpn2 aku taktau sape kau?
kite da suspect uh kau sape.

geram sia aku ngan kau.
kau BERANI je bobal pakai namer FAKE.
MACAM PAHAM.

aku kan dah ckp, mak bapak kau tak ajar kau.
tu psl prangai kau gini.
suke kutok2 orang.

SO WHAT KALAU GIGI AKU BESAR?
AKU TAK MINTAK PE AKU NAK BORN CAM GINI.
BODOH PEH LAHABAU.

KAU NK CAKAP AKU TENGAH TERHEGEH-HEGEH NGAN HAIRUL?!
FYI, AKU NGAN DIER DA PATCH.
DAH MATAER PON !
nk ckp ape skrang?
GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT, FUCKER.
kau jangan sampai surat police datang pat rumah kau.

Shallow-minded uh korang.!
HAHAHAHAHAHA~

Skrang senang je,
AKU NGAN ISMA NAK JUMPE KAU.
kalau kau tak nak, SUROH MAK BAPAK kau jumpe kiter.
Jangan nk expect slow talk tau.
bleh tak?
kalau kau pengecot, add kite pat msn.
AKU RASE KAU TAKOT NAK BUAT GITU JUGAK !

haha~
bodoh peh orang.
nk ckp aku pengcot ngan anjing semuer.
KETTLE CALLING THE POT BLACK.

Orang-orang mcm kau buat menyemak pat dunia nie uh.
AKU doakan kau meninggal cepat supaya kau tak buat dosa-dosa lagy k?
AMIN.

KAU KATE KAU CONDEMN AKU DARI DULU YE?
ASL DARI DULU TAK NAK BOBAL NGAN AKU?
TAKOT NGAN AKU EH??
*BLUSHES*
MESTI LA, AKU TAU KAU TAKOT NGAN AKU TKYAH LA BUAT AKU KEMBANG!
EH, SINI UH JUMPE AKU NGN BOBAL NGAN AKU.
KAU STEP BIG FUCK PAT BLOG ORANG LAEN ASL TK NK JUMPE AKU TEROS?
EH,KAU YANG KENTAL UH SKRANG!
BABIMAK PEH ANAK SUNDAL.
JUMPE NGAN AKU UH!
KENTAL-ISM.

kentaaaaaal la kau anak sialan!
hahahaahhahaaahaahhhaha!

To Isma and the other 3,
Thanks alot for being there for me and through thick or thin you know all of us will be there for each other right?
{;
LOVE YOU GUYS ^^

And Isma, So sorry i can't make it to the kenduri of your abang today.
you should know why kan?
But, i'm sure he is at a better place now.
Amin.

To Bby,
yestd was amazing!
i really love you and you know we can pull this shit through!
[;

Oh yes,
Bby said this to me when he called me,
"U ! biler nak khawin?? cpat uh! i tak sabar nie! khawin cpat2 ok?!"
HAHAA~
what does this show tina?
AKU TNGAH TERHEGEH-HEGEH NGAN HAIRUL?

*spits*

okay la.
enough of bull-shitting now.
i seriously need Bby to cool me down.

Apologies to all of you.
Next post will be proper okay?

till then,
BYE !

Oh Yes, 1 year 4 months today~
^^
If it's you & me forever
If it's you & me right now
That'd be alright
Be alright
We're chasing stars to lose our shadow
Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine
So won't you fly with me.

2009-08-08T18:47:00.002+08:00

I bet SOMEONE soo called, DOGS are reading this post.
well, here's one for you.

first of all, i dont give a fuck on whatever you dogs are saying.
incase you guys think that ill get sad/down, awwww, IM NOT :D
soo go ahead criticise me, you guys are NOTHING to me.
why should i bother with whatever you guys are saying?
pathetic much?
keep on tagging, i wont get affected afterall *smiles

and to that SOMEONE, hey, you should know yourself which post that you're hinting my bestfriend.
dont try to be the winner and the innocent party here okay.
pencuri mane nak mengaku yang die curi kan? betul? same la dngn kau!
da update pasal orang, tak nak mengaku.

about that boyfriend of yours.
Hello babe, we dont give a fuck about him. we dont care not having him as a friend.
im there. hatetagging you, just because im fighting for Isma's rights.
mentang2 die diam2, korang pijak kepale die.
eh, its good enough she's patience towards you. this is soo not Isma.
i know her in and out. count yourself lucky she doesnt make this a big thing.
and yes, you dont like her, and i bet, one of the hatetaggers, are you yourself.
cowards. jumpe isma sendiri tak nak.

since you think you are the winner, HAH, we'll see.
to that boyfriend of yours, you are like another piece of rubbish to our eyes.
if we are like 'terhegeh-hegeh' about him, please k, JANGAN PERASAN.
kau mane nye hebat sia kite nak gitu macam? gy jalan dah.
and like you said about hairul, brotherhood korang lagi strong?
HAHAHA.
well, you're wrong.
he's my BOYFRIEND. and he told me stuffs that i dont wish to put it here.
lets just see if brotherhood or MY relationship last longer k?
jangan confident lain kali.. blueks! :P

im done. kalau korang maseh tak puas, come and meet me myself.
not via taggings and blogging. vewy the kental.

and btw, aku angkat paiseh, its not because of that couple.
its all because of my boyfriend.
soo please k? jangan nak bangge2 aku angkat untok kau.
naseb aku pandang mataer aku arh.

soo, have fun criticising me. and kononye your 'supporters' will help you and stuffs.
'supporters' or tag sendiri ehk? LOL !

ANYWAAAAAAAY, THIS IS MY BLOG, MY SAY.
TAK SUKE, KAU PEH PASAL! HAHAHA!

AND,
I LOVE MY BBY COS I'M GLAD HE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME TO ALWAYS TELL ME WHAT'S RIGHT AND WRONG.

THANKS BBY !!!
i love you to the max~
oh yes, 090809 {:
1 year 4 months, yo ^^

Atiqah punye on monday kan??
2 years plus!!
*jealousjealous*
:P

worthless suckers

2009-08-08T11:28:00.007+08:00

BEST FRIENDS FOREVER WILL BE :)

Heyy-lo!
here for a quick update.

True, i tagged at Someone's blog.
And strangely, i'm not feeling guilty about it.
I'm just not happy about YOU GUYS actually not banning the motherfuckers who actually insulted my BEST FRIEND'S features.
You may say i'm a busybody or whatsoever BUT i don't care.
My best friend is like my OWN SISTER.
I don't so called "DISOWN" her or say "I DON'T KNOW HER ANYMORE".

If you're willing to protect you gf that much, i can do the same for my best friend.
I love my BEST FRIENDS that much okay.
Remember this, I'm just SO PROUD that YOU actually are fighting back with me.

And, i'm so HAPPY to know that you're willing to say,"TAKE CARE UH KAU NGAN HAIRUL BILER PAT LUAR" to me.
SO MUCH FOR BROTHERHOOD.
brani kau buat gini pat hairul?
EH, KAU TAKDE ORANG LAGI SAPE KAU CARIK SIA??
you dare say he is your "bradder' when you're willing to do something bad to him??

If you want to say the same thing for me, FYI i am NOT breaking both of you apart.
I'm just not happy about my BEST FRIEND being critised.
THAT'S IT.
End Of Story.

And don't worry,
kalau kau nk pulaukan kite, kite tk pasal uh.
I and MY BEST FRIEND don't need you to make our life happy anymore.

You guys won't bring me down.
In fact, thanks for the compliment!
Keep it coming!
Loves^^

TO the FUCKERS who insulted my BEST FRIEND;
FCUK OFF.
SHE DOESN'T INTERFERE WITH YOUR LIFE SO PLEASE GET LOST.
HUMANS ARE IMPERFECT.
IF YOU ARE REALLY THAT BRAVE TO TAG AND INSULT US TO THAT EXTEND, WHY DON'T YOU JUST MEET US UP?
ASAL?
KAU TAKOT PEH?
BANYAK KAU CAKAP AKU KECOT TAPI KAU SENDIRIK TAK NAK JUMPE AKU.
AND, BY DOING ALL THIS IS NOT JUST TO PLEASE YOU GUYS.
GO HOME AND ASK YOUR PARENTS TO TEACH YOU MANNERS OKAY?
KALAU MAK BAPAK KAU PON MCM GITU, SUROH NENEK DATOK MOYANG KAU AJAR KAU.
AT LEAST, KITE PEH MAK BAPAK AJAR TKMU KUTOK2 ORANG.

dah.
i'm done here.
bye.

Dear Bby,
I'm sorry to do this but i really hate these low-life suckers.
Sorry to land you into trouble too.
I promise, to protect you always.

You guys can NEVER break us apart anymore.
Love you, Bby<3

I'M TIRED TO BOTHER YOU MORONS.
I GOT WAY BETTER THINGS TO DO.
:D

wow, ader orang maseh nk amek tau pasal nie?
:)
http://www.google.com.sg/search?q=khairul thahirah blog&hl=en&rlz=1r2...

shallow minds vs great minds

2009-08-07T20:27:00.005+08:00

Heyy-lo!
That is...

my hubby.
:P
yes, we have patched up.
I promise not to be over-protective okay?
{:
i love you!!

OH YES, there's this chinese guy whom i used to like.
And, i coincidentally saw him at Forum just now.
When he saw me,he immediately held his so called "GIRLFRIEND'S" hand.
Please eh, HOW LOW CAN YOU GET BY DOING THAT JUST TO MAKE ME JEALOUS?
-.-"
i repeat,LOW.
urgh.
i have forgotten about you looooooong time ago.

Told Bby about it and he said, "I dekat sini buat pe kann?"
Translate: "I'm here for what right??"
HAHA.
padehal, he is otw home.
-.-"

in any case,
you are a..
smelly ass.

Met up with my 5 besties from sec school just now was a blast.
god, how i miss them.
(;
meet up soon again k?
ily guys^^
(sorry no photos due to some reasons)

National Day Celebration at school just now too.
Ermm?
Surprisingly, everyone was semangat and rushing to get the balloons?
haha~
i know.
Atiqah and Shaz were like screaming,"Nadrah! Got Balloons! Take for meeee!"
(mentangmentang aku Bridge Leader take ADVANTAGE ey!)
heee.

Oh well,
I'm happy these days.
not.
???

I'm off downloading videos for my dad.

Till then,
TC {;

Last Friday when going back home with Amirah (:

Forever Together :P
Tag Replies !
/Dyana: IMY TOO :'( when can i meet you?
/Khairun: hellohello ! da lame dah ade blog! heh. okayokay^^
/atiqah: hello minah :P YELA YELA, atiqah yang kasi kan? heee~ ily (:
/Kk: shocking plus sad seh :( haha! bahasekn khairun kat sini plak ! :P
/NAMIE: alamakk. menyusahkn aku je :P

***
Lastly,
JANGAN SIBOK HAL ORANG IF IT DOESN'T CONCERNS YOU.
KPO TAK TERMAMPOS.

BYE.
i (love) hairul gazillions.

death and sins

2009-08-04T07:20:00.008+08:00

All of us will have to leave this world one day.
So far at least 4 people i know died this year.
I was shocked that they went.
Too fast,i think.

Isma, you need to be strong.
Sometimes, the people closest to you may be the ones leaving you first.
Our time here in this world is limited.
You will never know when it's your time.
Darl, i'm here for you.
:)
Cheer up.

Thinking about all this things, my closest ones have not left me,YET.
i wonder, how am i supposed to react when their time comes?
can i live my life without them?
it's a topic that can linger on me for days.

i remembered when my father showed me this video when a man's soul was being pulled out from his body.
WHILE PLAYNG FOOTBALL.
yes, surprising huh?

click HERE for video.

you may laugh at first BUT think back, it's actually true.
Only God knows why his soul is being pulled out that way.
And, that shows how is his past-doings on Earth.
How the way you died and how the way you look when you passed away.
In any case, reading the Surah and Yaasin is the only way that his sins can actually be forgiven.

I can elaborate on and on with this but i don't think you wouldn't want to read on.
I guess i will be stopping here.
Oh yes, do treasure your loved ones while you can.

Till then,
TC.

INALILLAH WA INALILLAHIRAJIUN .
Rest in Peace,Amin.
******************************************************

WAIT!!!
Happy 17th B'day to Ateera!
May you have a good future and O level tu PASS ey!
May God Bless,Amin.
(sorry for the late bday wish! i was really busy these days)

In shattered pieces that may never be replaced

2009-07-26T14:15:00.003+08:00

It begin with knowing each other as strangers.
But, our story didn't went normally as couples did.
Instead of being friends, we were enemies at first.
We hated each other.
As the years goes by, we develop that "feeling" towards each other.

Both of us didn't even believe that we fell for each other.
Yes, it may seem that we were unpredictable.
Deep inside, you know who is always going to stick by your side:)

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

you're myguilty pleasure

2009-07-25T10:59:00.005+08:00

i'm freaking addicted to Beyonce's new song: Sweet Dreams
GAAH~
(not to mention her hot bod)

oh yes, i will never forget yestd's date.
3 1/2 ??
{;
my fever and flu seems to be gone FOR NOW but not my irritating cough.
grrrrr.

anw, i won't be able to go to the NDP preview due to being sick.
so i gave it to my Minah Friend, Shaz :)
do you know i have never ever been to a NDP parade before?
yes, never.
sad right?
heh.

i guess i should be going now.
i need to do some housework :)

till then,
TC.

Strangely, Sis and Me are sick now.
Last time, we use to always fall sick together everytime .
Even though now we live seperately, deep inside both of us know that we always think of each other kan?
hee~
ily so much kak :)

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare

2009-07-24T11:48:00.003+08:00

old pic.

hey~
i'm sick.
really sick.
anw, i freaking hate my BEO teacher.
imagine, if you didn't come to his lessons even though you have a valid reason or MC, he would still give ZERO for your test.
yes, NO CHANCE.
AT ALL.
fcuk rite?

i am damn tired.
oh yes, thanks for following me to the doctor.
^^

till then,
TC.

lies and truths

2009-07-22T07:21:00.004+08:00

(boredom strikes when waiting for my 4 bitches to arrive to school)

hey~
lots of things have been happening recently.
move on.
slowly,time will heal our pain.

anw, sis is planning to give ndp tix to me.
:D

k then,
i'm off.

tag replies!

/Nina Arina: Ouh, they're my classmates in sec sch? We usually meet after school. true, i need to move on. But, it's not time yet :)
Avid Reader?? haha~ but i don't even know you?? how do you know me?
:D

/erni: hey babe!
will link you up too. thank god it went well:)
/Sheeqeen: hey prettyyy :)
/ferra: dah tukar? then u knw my no tak?
/Raddy: hey rad!
okay, done ! :D
tc, stay gorgeous^^

TRUE FACTS ABOUT MEN.
1.Never change your looks thinking that will keep a man from cheating or desire you more.
2.Men hate it when you go through his personal belongings checking for paystubs,bank statements,phone numbers,or cell records.
3.Men do not like it when women use sex as a weapon.
4.Food and sex is not the real way to a man's heart.
5.Never ask a man if he is cheating,because he most likely is not going to give you the real answer.
6.Some men pretend to hate and despise a particular woman,but actually he really likes her.He may even call her a bad name to make you think he do not want her.
7.Men fall in love faster than women.
8.Men have a difficult time expressing themselves.
9.Men cheat because of the lack of affection,sexual addiction,weak for sex,revenge on a cheating partner,and pressure from male friends and seductive women.
10.Men do not like it when a woman loud talk them and don't give them a chance to speak.
11.Men will date different women or sleep with different women to keep from falling in love.
12.If a man do not introduce you to his family or friends,he really don't want a serious relationship.
13.Men who fear commitment hates to feel cornered, and will eventually ask you for space.
14.Never follow a man out of town away from your family.He may not treat you well.
15.There are men that will make love to you,and still think of another woman.
16.Men have different preferences when it comes to women.Some won't date you if you are not petite,and some won't date you if you are not large.
17.Some men are turned on by certain parts of a woman's body;whether it is her hair, nails ,teeth,legs,or perhaps her eyes.
18.Men that hesitate or take a long time asking a woman to marry them,is either a commitment phobe,don't want to give up his player card,or he is still looking.
19.Men are always watching women from afar.Men are terrific watchers and you will never catch them watching. So forget it!
20.Never share your whole life history with a man.He may use it against you in the near future.So be careful what you you tell him and how much you let him know.
21.If you don't want a man, don't take his money.
22.When a man give you money or gifts,he sees it as an investment in you. When a man does this ,he do not expect you to see other men,and do not expect for you to leave him at all.
23.When a man want to try a new position in the bedroom, 9 out of 10, he learned it from another woman.
24.Men love a clean woman and a clean house.
25.These days some men are obsessed about how much a woman makes on her job. Some men love the fact that a woman have her own income,that way she won't ask him for his money.
26.There are men that don't love the woman they are with,but can't stand to see her with anyone else. Men like this like to keep the woman around for his own selfish purposes.
27.Men do not like to be compared to another man.
28.When you play the role as a man's wife and is not married to him,he will delay taking you to the alter to marry you. Most men will wait many years, if you let them.
29.Most men love to smell a woman's natural body scent.Only a few men love the scent of perfume on a woman's body.
30. Men have a habit of asking almost every woman he meets about how many partners she had in her lifetime. My advice: Never answer this question unless you are not ashame to answer. Most men ask this, because they are turned off by women who have had multiple partners.
31.What ever you tell a man,he will always remember.Men never forget what you say,so be careful what you say and choose your words carefully.
32.Men hate to be embarassed in front of his friends and family,especially in public.
33. There are men that will rather show you love,rather than tell you he loves you.
34. Men love to gossip more than women, and they love sharing bedroom secrets,so be careful if you are the type to sleep around. Men will make you the talk of the town,and other men will know your business. A woman's reputation is always at risk.

Main Point;
GUYS=EGO.

let'swait and see.

2009-07-18T12:17:00.007+08:00

For Nadrah Nutdz whose their name start with letter N, below are the analysis result :

You are emotional and intense.
When involved in a relationship, you throw your entire being into it.
Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred.
You are all-consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense.
You believe in total freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything.
Your supply of energy is inexhaustible.
You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate.
You also enjoy mothering your mate.
You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself, in your head.
You are very imaginative.

hey !
will be working today.
been thinking lately, should i stop all this nonsense?
bleahh.

i need some rest.
don't be surprised if one day i'll be gone to care for you.
:)

bye~

you need me.
and you need HER too.
?
make-up your mind.

Cry No More-Chris Brown.

aku boleh gile oi pasal you!

2009-07-16T20:14:00.005+08:00

hello!
aku happy gilerr.
-between me and him-

sorry to isma and the guys for not coming just now.
:P
aku penat k?
next timeeeeee,pwomish!

btw, i want to watch Harry Potter!
yeahyeah, first time right i want to watch these type of lame shows.
well it looks kinda interesting,i admit.
:P

anw, i'm back home and i went to fetch my lil bro from gran's hse.

TA DAA!

potential mat-rep to be.

following his brother-in-law i suppose?!
tsktsk.
haha!!
(i'm thinking too far actually)

i am waiting for your call,ass.
u,cepatt ler!
hee~

kay,i'm off.

BYE!! ^^

why can't it stay this way,forever?

2009-07-16T08:17:00.009+08:00

For Nadrah Nutdz with zodiac Scorpio, below are their trust analysis result :

They can be trusted to a extent.
They are very secretive people but not about everything.
You get a scorpio mad and they will use all that information against.
In a relationship,some or faithful and some or not. Ive seen scorpios faithful.
They treat there lover how how you treat them.

hey !!
i'm in a good mood these days.
finally, after 5 days i've got a really big appetite to eat again!
idk why but i think my mood is happier now.
thanks to you :)

We ate at Campus Haven and somehow, i just wish everyday things would go smoothly.
Looking at you, i'm surprised that you really want to change.
Just remember, me and your mum would be so happy for you:)

After school, waited for him for almost 2.5 hours?
(tkpe, sanggop !)
Then,Nawaz, Theeban and Krishna also wanted to meet up.
So, i headed home and THANKS FOR THE EZ-LINK CARD INCIDENT EH.
grrrr.
thinking of it IS SWEET but please don't do that again okay?
and yes, imy too :)

Only God knows how happy i was yesterday.
true,imysm bby<3

140709.

10.30pm.
From me to you.

forgive me.

2009-07-14T08:04:00.005+08:00

It took so long to get here, why you wanna go
Why you wanna leave me, why you wanna go?

Cause there ain't nothing better than you by my side.

Its been 1 Week and i still keep thinking about you.
Sadly, you aren't doing the same.
boy, i miss you.
Sorry but i'm not as pure and innocent as her )':

The fact is, I have never ever been this weak before towards a guy.

Your call
Fall for you
Kiss me thru the Phone
Your Guardian Angel
Superhuman
A little too not over you
Just so You Know
Beautiful Soul
Insomnia
DOY
Lelaki Ini
Menjaga Hati
Hate That I Love You
You're Still the One
Love Story
Ashley
I Wanna Be
Lastly, Thinking of You.

Those songs, can i hear you sing them to me once again?
Esp, my recent song.

Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.

2009-07-13T19:53:00.012+08:00

You are a type 1B Person:

You have a need for other people to like and admire you, and yet you tend to be critical of yourself.
While you have some personality weaknesses you are generally able to compensate for them.
You have considerable unused capacity that you have not turned to your advantage.
Disciplined and self-controlled on the outside, you tend to be worrisome and insecure on the inside.
At times you have serious doubts as to whether you have made the right decision or done the right thing.
You prefer a certain amount of change and variety and become dissatisfied when hemmed in by restrictions and limitations.
You also pride yourself as an independent thinker;
and do not accept others' statements without satisfactory proof.
But you have found it unwise to be too frank in revealing yourself to others.
At times you are extroverted, affable, and sociable, while at other times you are introverted, wary, and reserved.
Some of your aspirations tend to be rather unrealistic.

What are you hiding from people?

Emotions.

You tend to laugh and joke around when you are with everyone, but you feel lonely and empty when you are all alone.
You cry alone when you have stress and problems.
You often have many problems that are bugging you, but you never show them out on your face.
You are not as cheerful as they thought, but you just don't wish to spoilt the mood of everyone, hence you hide your emotions inside.
You are just a weak human with feelings afterall.

Hey, i've been quite happier these days.
though, i still can't move on.
thanks for the people who have been there for me(:
Esp: Isma,Fytch,Ateera and Raudah.

And, the hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye.

you're really moving on.
:)

(the recent song is for you)

over and done with

2009-07-11T09:07:00.005+08:00

i feel long distance relationships are much more better.
and, they last longer.
agree?

trying to erase you from my mind.
but i just couldn't.

I'm tired of all this Round and Round we go,
You can't decide if you wanna be trife or treat me right.

Boy,
I miss your hugs
I miss your smile
I miss your kisses
I miss your touch
I miss your smell
I miss your nags
I miss you scolding and controlling me
Finally,
I miss your love.
I'm sorry but i have to admit that i am still
Remembering, Loving and Missing you.
And, i can't forget you no matter how much i try.
I can never forget you,
My True Love.

i've tried

2009-07-10T17:01:00.003+08:00

As looked at you, feelings of hatred lingers on me.
i don't want to say much but somehow i feel there is alot to say about.
with a simple reason, you left.
i didn't even let you go.
but, you wanted to.

i tried so hard to make our relationship last.
but again, a 3rd party comes.
i hope she would be better than me.
in the end, it was really you who left me.
looking back at those messages and those letters, i just can't believe what is happening right now.
i even thought that you could be my husband.
and you want me to be yours too.

but, i got to know that you had feelings for someone else when you loved me.
i was really trying so hard.
you should know that.
and all you did was just leaving me.

i have never ever regret one moment with you.
i felt that i was blessed to have you by my side.
instead, you didn't feel that way.
i can't do anything now.

Letting you go now is the only way.
May God Bless and hope things would go smoothly between you and her.
Tc, Hairul.

thinking of you.
( ring a bell? )

1 year and 3 months.

Some pics we took just now while hanging out:

moved on

2009-07-09T18:42:00.001+08:00

starting afresh.
you?
forgotten.

1 year and 3 months

2009-07-09T07:01:00.009+08:00

old pic.

Happy One Year and 3 Months, Hairul.

Things are now not going how we expected.
Life and Luck is not in our way now.

Nevertheless, i can never forget you.
The songs you used to sing to me,
how you smile(which makes me melt),
those love letters which you would always pour your feelings out,
those days when i always argued with you about Patrick and Spongebob,
those days when you always go home with me,
those days and you always tried to make me love you more and more
and
i just wish i could take good care of you every now and then.

what if, i won't have that chance?
i would never want to love another guy again.
i was bitch back then.
somehow, when hairul leaves me i realised things much more better in another view.

Thanks alot.
i miss you, Hairul.

(Avril Lavigne- Fall to Pieces)

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus]

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

Every moment spent with you was great <3

pretending i guess?

2009-07-07T20:45:00.007+08:00

(that's the M.J spirit lingering in S'pore behind me ! haha!)
*inside joke*

hey.
i'm back :)
met Krishna, Theeban, Nawaz and Hairul just now.
fuuuuh, i laughed non-stop man!
went to meet Isma in the morning and thanks ey [;

let the pics do the talking okay?
i'm really tired.

The M.J (laughs)

Nawaz (:told you the M.J sibok kaan? :P

friends only.
(zoom if you need to)my crazy bestie !

they made my day today.
though it was just a small group we still had fun (:
and Krishna, he has no more 6 packs !
booo~
:P

Hairul bought a new hp.
happy pe?
(:

well, i'm really glad i have friends who still stood by me till now.
not to forget Miirah, Suhada and Faizah too!
nk plan meet up?
hee~

kay then.
i'm O F F .

boy, words are nothing.
i want actions.
can?

i just wanna be with you

2009-07-06T19:58:00.006+08:00

thought today would went well.
it did at first, but somehow that feeling of guilt lingers on me after i met him.
i hope i made the right decision by choosing my ex back.

when i said goodbye, there's this look.
this look which feels like he wants to say something.
something he needs to say which he can't.
he was holding back his tears.
he didn't want to let go of my hands.
he didn't cared when his friends looked at him.
he squeezed my hands even tighter and smiled weakly.
and, i let go.
Sorry, but i'm totally in love with my Bby.

i hope i made the right decision.
i really hope i did.
in any case, i will never ever let you go.

anw, meeting back OB was freaaaaking blast !
KAT came back !
gosh, she looked so pretty !
chehhhh :P

yestd went out with Dear Isma and how i missss her so much !
as usual, i did the planning :P
did hair treatment and got Bby Vans shoes.
well, things changed alot ey?
[;
gonna meet that bacen tomorrow morning.
(bngn eh kau !)

okay then.
i'm sleepyy.

planning to change skin soon.
or now?
*shruggs*

bye.

happy deng !

2009-07-01T08:37:00.006+08:00

(it's a new song, hear it ! )

heyy-lo !
today's my off day.
finally kaan?
:p

Myy cooked a simple soup today.
Somehow, that simple soup instantly reminded me of someone who used to cook for her three children.
I can never forget the taste and how the three of us loved that soup so much.

And today, I got to taste that very same soup.
Well, you must be wondering why the heck I make a big fuss just because of a soup?
Maybe it's because I realized I don't tend to look at the other side of things.
bleaah.
you guys won't understand.

Thank you,Myy <3

Do you guys smell MONEY??
cos,
I smell MONEY !!
:B

( cos' pay day is on thurs !!! )

Anw, Bby bought me a lifeguard Spongebob Squarepants :DDDD
(mind my face as i only got few hours of sleep ok !)

hmmm, planning to buy something for Dear Bby too.
got a few things in mind..

oh well, i'm to excited to think now.
pay day, school re-opening and spending my personal time with Bby soon !!!

ah yes!
i saw quite a few people last week.
hmm..
Saiful, Zul, Cikgu Ainon, Kakak Nazy and Dear Khairul !

tag replies:
/edaa: hahaha! i know. i malas je :P

/babe: naaah~ it's settled alrd. thank for your concern (:
/guest: thanks for the compliment(: i almost brokedown actually.
luckily, things picked up!
yesss, it is hairul.
mind if i know who you are ?
:D
/JIUN RU: hello ! imy ): link me up !
/Isma: biasaaa! yes darl. nnti jumpe kau sooooon (:
ily too^^
/(: : haha. i know :P

Till then,
TC <3

Te Amo:
Dont it mean I love you
Think it means I love you
♥

forgiven.

2009-06-27T13:08:00.004+08:00

am so frigging tired today.
yestd was the last straw.
i finally poured my feelings out to him.

now, it's up to you to make decisions.
prove to me that you really meant those three words.

Woke up and I overheard this conversation between my bros:

Nabil: *smells around* "Eeeee. why so smelly?"
(Immediately looks at Naufal)
"Naufal, you kentot ah"?
Naufal: "Where got? I never kentot ! You always blame me !"
(smells his own butt)
=.=

Sch's gonna re-open sooooon :)
My, how i miss my class so much!

Remember, make use of this last chance both of us have given each other.

till then,
Tc and Thanks for your concern :D

had enough.

2009-06-26T11:17:00.006+08:00

somehow,i feel lost.
i'm never able to get things right.
i NEED to control this nasty temper of mine.

but, you shouldn't be doing this to me.
my tears, countless times of saying sorry and not having any sleep..
i tried so hard to change myself.
and, because of one silly mistake, that love i had try to reconcile vanished (?)
i wonder.
all along, was it you who stood by me or is it the other way round?

never once i hate you.
instead, my love for you would just increase day by day.
i hope those kisses, those hugs, that imaginary ring and the word "wife" which hopefully belongs to me would be true one day.

i have played around enough.
shouldn't you be thinking the same too?

tag replies:
/nazy: hahaha ! tak naak :P
/Fiqq: hello! hee~
/sufy: *coughs* poly?! LOL. insyallah :)
/munira: hey :) it's "falling for you" by busted.

R.I.P: Micheal Jackson.

suffer in silence (?)

2009-06-25T13:49:00.003+08:00

this is the proven result of not sleeping 3 days straight.
plus crying non-stop and a very splitting headache.
(:

ineedtopeenow.

bye.

believing yourself.

2009-06-24T09:06:00.006+08:00

Was freaking scared I won't pass my exam.
Can't even sleep yesterday.
First thing i thought when i woke up was,"RESULT! RESULT!"

Immediately switched on computer and straight away headed to ITE website.
When logged in, I got clueless of where the heck was my result.
Kept clicking and clicking..
Still nowhere to be seen !
argh!
damn stress.

Finally, saw the results BUT scared it was the wrong one.
Read the result over and over again.
satisfied? hmm? i guess my results was okay.
Can do better.
BUT, i just can't help squealing when i saw the marks~

jyeah!
I got 3.3 for my GPA points(:
Only 1 A and 3 Bs.
ish!
*prays next term can get perfect 4 points*

Congrats to Hyekel, Kelvin and Atiqah for getting a perfect 4.0 GPA score (:

You were the one that made me strong,
you made me stand up on my own
with every cruel intention you helped me find my
independence.

Somehow, I felt touched when my father msged me,"Thanks for the cake, dik"
and Myy thanked me when i sent Nabil and Naufal to her workplace.
Well,i guess there's nothing much better than family love.
huuur!
so emo siaaa.

but, i really do love my family plus my irritating-not 1 year older than me,sis(:

fake in disguise.

2009-06-23T10:12:00.006+08:00

*edited*

tag replies:
/Jiie: waah! jaoh seh terpicit! haha,ty^^
/*: yes,it is. 'new divide' by Linkin Park [:
my fav rock band all-time!
/ferra: LOL.please! same okay:P
/Guest: hmm? diff? same whatt. except for the hair i guess :P
/nazy: yes, cute. but IRRITATING ! hahaha!
/ilza: hello dear (:
/sheril: mesti la kau pon rindu aku ! bnyk org pon ! HAHA.
kembang siak aku -.-"
*slaps*
/sufy: hahahaha ! truetrue! that's why everyone kept looking!
____________________________

N : is a very good kisser too!

A : crazy
D : a very good girlfriend or boyfriend anyone ever had
R : funny
A : crazy
H : stick to one

yestd i went to drop bros at Suntec.
While we were waiting for Myy to finish her work, we took some photos.
i couldn't resist laughing badly when i look at it over and over again.

be prepared for Joker No.1:

okay. it's not that funny.
but at least Naufal's cute right?

this time, I'm not joking.

Joker No.2:

i know.
Nabil seriously was 'into' this role (:

i dunno why both of them are trying so hard to look like this.
i mean, almost everyone at DBS Suntec was looking at them?
no laa.
just kidding.

MASTERPIECE.

(told you Nabil was 'into' it)

okay.
i'm done (:
i need to do some housework now !

till then,
TC.

oh yes, went to drop by at my old workplace too.
man, i miss them so much !
akhbar really surprised me.
i miss you guys ):

missing my Bby.

2009-06-22T11:04:00.003+08:00

ihatemyfuckingirritatingmanager.
likecheebye.

BL's having sentosa outing today.
eNjoy yourselves (:

tag replies !
/dyla DORAE: huur ): meet up la ! okaay.
/shida: yes makcik? mesti la senyap. takkan nk pegi rumah krg buat kecoh kan? HAHA.:P
/sheril: hello ! aku pon rindu kau la bacen btol !
/Stashie: hey ! truetrue. gd luck for o's (:
/kath♥: HELLO ! omg. i really miss you sia! where have you been,dear?
Njoy yours too,aites? ily^^

till then,
Tc.

eat you up.

2009-06-20T13:23:00.002+08:00

heyy-lo people !
been working my ass off these few days.
not to forget, lotsa things are HAPPENING at work now.
oh well, that's life.

anyway, things between me and Bby are finally sorted out.
no more misunderstanding, okay?
:P

okay then.
i gtg to work now.

till then,
TC (:

i miss everyone !!!
:D

tag replies.

2009-06-18T17:50:00.003+08:00

/haniz: lol ! your make-up doesn't bothers me, dear. people with thick ones do (:
/afriend: popular for what? the right or wrong reasons? i mean, she doesn't disturb people ya'know !
/u tau i saper !: saper yg tktau you macem? promise ehh^^
/dayaa: done hunney {:
/----: the previous one? yeaa. title is,"money honey".
/sairah: LOL.paisehpaiseh ! okay then. gd luck for O's !

love you,till eternity.

2009-06-18T15:16:00.018+08:00

I don’t wanna be without you

I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath without you
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you

I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl.

Again, it always end up as a misunderstanding.
I am trusting you now.

Take care of me like you promised, my Bby.

dang, i miss my family in UO0901B !
and mostly, my 4 bitches <3

trusted.

2009-06-17T13:02:00.002+08:00

you prefer trusting and believing them more than me even though you barely know them for one year.
so much for changing myself.
Liars,proven.

still, i love you my bby <3

2009-06-15T13:31:00.007+08:00

see those awful eyebags?

hello !
going to work soon.
tired mentally and physically now.
will be very busy working and sadly, thurs is the only day off ):
oh well, i just know that my pay is gonna be a BOMB !
hee~

Bby's working today too but he's working earlier than me.
we both are too busy to even meet up and spent one afternoon with each other !
*sighs*

things around here are still not stable.
yet.
tired.to.even.think.about.it.

oh well,i should be going now.
i need to put make-up for work.
ugh.
makes me not look 16+!
:P

talking about make-up..
seriously, to me people who puts make-up everyday when going out or to school are just hiding their inner beauty.
it's just irritating to see people using make-up EVERYDAY.

i don't even use it everyday.
i only use it occasionally in school, special occasions and to work.
haaa~

See how Heidi Klum looks without and with make-up?

look at our Dear Miley !!

urgh.
i'm disgusted.
please, never use make-up as a form to show your fake self.
it sucks.

sorry but if you're offended,this is MY blog.

till then,
TC(:

I'm glad my Bby accepts me the way I am {;

2009-06-13T22:03:00.015+08:00

S.R yaww !

helloooooo !
just came back from work and i'm damn tired.
nxt week's schedule is not confirmed yet.

not like Aqiem who will be working 12 to 10pm straight !
(suke kan kau?)

Anw, mom's back from Germany.
Well, things aren't going smoothly ey?
its actually really easy to settle this problem.
you can just tell the truth or just keep lying and lying.

oh well,you are just wanna keep your own butt safe and hurt people around you.
i can't be bothered anymore.

thanks for doing this.

lets just post some pics for now {:

went to Sengkang Swimming Complex last Tuesday.

freaaking awesome !!

imagine if these were real..
eeww!!

hahaha~
okaaay.
i'm done here.

and, i swear our love is getting deeper (:

*tag replies :
/dayaedaya: hahaha~ da link babe :D
/munira: done(:
/passerbY: yup ! and i'm proud to be one [;
/ a friend: yes she is !! a close friend indeed ! why may i ask?
/Fiqq: yelaaa. i'm not so artistic okay !!!
/sabrina d: LOL ! noo laa~ i 'm happy-go-lucky so my songs follow my mood dear (:
/: ty^^ and like what my dear Ayut said, i am i guess {;
/ayut: eheh u ! bile mase seyy :P
/Marissa: Finally you got blog ! okaay dear.
/fernelle: babe! imyt ): okay !
/sufy: hahahhahaa~ funny siaa. small world ey? [;
/elah: ouh! best kan keje? hee~

byeeee~

2009-06-11T12:53:00.010+08:00

Happy 1 Year,3 Months and 2 Days my BbyLove.

i love you and you know it {:

p.s: it doesn't concerns you whether i have someone by my side.
you need not comment if you have words that are fucking sarcastic.
fuck off cos' i don't need you to drop by here (:

family day.

2009-06-07T20:44:00.009+08:00

hey-lo peeps !
too tired to update now.
prolly next post k?
Njoy tha pics (:

pictures from the Family Bbq today.
won't elaborate much today.
freaking shagged.

Although it was a great day, it wasn't the greatest without the closest person beside me all along.
We 3 girls do miss you alot and i missed you for not being there.

till then,
TC.

tags would be replied soon.

2009-06-05T17:26:00.003+08:00

imissyou.
macem, i hope you really mean what you've said to me all along when i'm with you.
you're the most freaking awesome guy i've ever had.

iloveyoutillmyfreakingbodywillburstintolittletinypieces.

i looooveee you more, macem :P

2009-06-04T07:41:00.006+08:00

old pic. *look at those eyebrows and eyebags*
:/

heyy-lo !

and macem, i enjoyed every moment with you.
your calls, your voice, your smile, your moves, your hugs and your kisses makes me melt so deeply into you.
over and over and over again.
ily^^

I FINISHED MY EXAMS ! (:
*SCREAMS AND ROLLS ON THE FLOOR*

yeayy(:
CRN was freaking easy.but OSA was okayokay uh.
OFC was easy. but hard at the same time.
oh well, i know i finished those two papers alrd.

i'm just gonna stop here for now.
i'm reallyreally shagged :)

tag replies ! :

/chez: oi biol ! aku pon rindu kau kay? hp aku kene confiscate ngn myy aku uh ! nnti aku dh dpt balek, aku msg kau k? (:
/karean and haniz: lol ! ty ^^ gd luck for your exams too (:
/sabrina d: you dun wanna admit meh? you pretty obviously got high standard liao ! :PPPPP
/ferra: ish. mane ader? you makin lawa ader uh ! anw, you got no blog eyy? imy sehhhh :'(
/ama: hahahahahaaa~ tknk admit plak {:
/f: uhhhhh? who are you?
/aisyah: hahaha ! hello ! will link you up aites? tc and njoy ur hols ^^
/feesah: ohkays ! will link you up too (:
/wanaa: hello wanaa ! its been a long time since i saw you ! i still remember you and i do miss all of you guys too ! about facebook? naah. i dun have an account. too lazy to create one. you create blog laa! then, i'll maybe create facebook (: hee~
/guest: sibok je ! haha~ its "silly boy" by lady gaga feat rihanna.
macem was the one who recommended it to me (:

okay then. i'm done.
till then,
TC ^^

p.s: i will delete those links who have been deleted or removed.
so, if you want me to re-link you back, pls tell me.
(:

fallen hopes

2009-05-28T07:47:00.003+08:00

hey and gd mrning.
got Tagged by Ismalove (:

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
hand. (sincerity)

2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
headache and puffy eyes due to crying yestd night.

3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
hym, the person whom i really loved most.

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
sometimes? hah.

5. Would you ever donate blood?
yes. i'm not cruel ya' know {;

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
yesssssss !

7. Do you want someone dead?
at least i want the person to be hospitalized je.

8. What does your last message says?
cant rmbr cos my hp's not with me. but i knw, that HE was the last person i msged.

9. What are you thinking right now?
am i gonna even have the chance to be with hym again?

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
somehow, yes.

11. What is the time you go to bed last night?
4.30am? after crying my ass out and listening to those songs that he used to sing to me.

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
hmmm? idk.

13. Is someone on your mind?
yup. it has always been.

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
HYM.

15. Tag 10 random people to do this survey:
1. Fiqq
2.Dyana
3.Ateera
4.Sabrina Darleen
5.Fytch
6.Nazeeha
7.Haniz
8.Karean
9.Sheril
10.Imah

16. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
hahah~no one i think for now, right?

17. Is no. 3 a male or female?
Female.

18. If no. 7 & no. 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
LMAO. they're both girls !

19. What is no. 1 studying about?
Facility Tech.

20. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
hmm? including all, last month?

21. Is no. 4 single?
yesyesyes ! her standard veryy high !

22. Say something about no. 3
my best freind since i was sec 1 ! ily ^^

23. What do you think about no. 3 & no. 5 being together?
wtf? they don't even knw each other !

24. Describe no. 9.
my giler and kam cheng friend !

25. What will you do if no. 6 & no. 7 fight?
oh.. no 6. is my sis actually. so idk ?

26. Do you like no. 8?
DUH~ she is girl who just loves to touch my ****!!

gg off now.
i won't be updating for quite a while now.
and probably gonna make my Blog private soon.

till then,
tc.

biskut and macem (:

2009-05-27T07:01:00.003+08:00

You finally said,"I Love You" after 3 Months and 18 Days.
i promise you that i will cherish and take good care of you if there IS another chance.

ily too, macem !!

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

so much to do, so little time

2009-05-26T09:01:00.006+08:00

heyyy-lo !
will be here for a short update.
DUE TO EXAMINATIONS next week ):
anw, i won't be working fer a while due to exams too.
boooooo.

went out with Amalina, Mudd and the other person whom i shoudn't mention here :P
went to TM to search for Ama's bag.
so, both of us headed first and ate KFC without waiting for them.
hahah~
she treated me Snackers whereas she ate the Zinger Meal.
thks baby !!
(:

after that, we headed to CS and TM to see bags.
Ama finally picked one and i liked it too !
next tyme aku bwk kau kay beli gaji aku masok?
^^

wanted to play hide and seek with those two but didn't turned out the way we expected cos' they saw us first.
-.-"
spoil je plan.

then, we headed to Ramen Ten ( is this how you spell it ?) for those two gundus who haven't eaten.
the ambience was OKAY la.
no aircon.
wtf ?
and the service was abit slowwwwww.
but, the food was okaay (:

we ate and after that lepak kejap and i headed to home whereas ****** and Mudd went shopping and Ama went to work.

hmmmmm.
that's all about it.
and, here are some of the pics taken at Ramen Ten (?)

sweet but giler couple :P

take 2 !

sibok je org pat sebelah :P

take 1.

candid habesss !

hahaaa~
that's about it.
thank you eyy (:

gonna be mugging for exams for the next two weeks and hols are coming up soon !
yeayyy (:

okay then.
TC (: